I failed to graduate from university. I was supposed to finish my 4 years of study this month. But I couldn't complete it. I need to study for another year.
Why did I fail? I failed to pass one exam. It was the very last exam that I took two months ago. Also, unlike the other university students in Japan typically do, I didn't earn that much of credits to graduate from the university during or by my 3rd year or early 4th year. I attempted to earn credits exactly as I needed. Then I failed to get the one at the end. So there was a bit of a strategic mistake too.
I was shocked when I found out the result. I wasn't 100% confident when I finished the test and I have to admit that it was one of the most difficult subjects I've ever taken; it was about Artificial Intelligence. There were loads of terms in the textbook that I could hardly understand, plus the textbook itself was just about showing what the author knows instead of helping a reader to comprehend the whole idea of AI. It simply took me to a labyrinth of knowledge and technology while my expectation towards it was to guide me through to the entrance of its deep world.
I still thought I had sacrificed enough of my time and hair to pass the exam. But it turned out that it was an obvious failure and I never had any chance to make up my score. Once I failed, I failed. Period. And, my credits are not enough to graduate this year.
As I wrote, I was shocked at the moment and I spaced around just for a moment. But in seconds, I realized that I still have a passion to study. I still am curious about learning new things and expanding my view. So now I feel excited to start another intellectual journey through the year.
This is an unexpected gift. The only thing is that it requires a tiny bit of adjustment of my life plan. And, I don't mind taking that.
I am ready for the next round.
